Straight jackets are on your left, meds are on the table and if you hurry, you can still get a seat in group therapy!

Oh...and thanks for stopping bye!!!

Thursday, October 29

The call from mom

Last night my mom called to see how I was doing. What did I do?....I balled. I was doing fine all day! Why is it the minute I get on the phone with her I starting crying like a baby?!?!?! Seriously, I am a 29 year old mother of a 2yr old acting like a 2yr old on the phone. I need to just get a grip. I think its probably just the hormones, as a matter of fact...that is going to be my story and I'm sticking to it!!

On another note, I have been feeling better and was able to keep down some noodles today. Yay! (Hay, its a start, right? Lol)

Tomorrow Alexi gets to dress up in her Halloween costume for daycare. She is so excited. I will reveal what her costume is tomorrow ;-)

Good night all

Wednesday, October 28

The first real meltdown

Yesterday afternoon I decided I was feeling like I could eat something. Finally, to have something substantial in my stomach. I decided to eat a small bowl of raisin bran. I figured that couldn't be so bad and I could use all the calcium and fiber I can get, right? Well, I think I was wrong.

About 20 minutes after eating, I figured I would try to take a bath and get washed up....finally, since coming home from the hospital. (Mind you, Fred and Alexi were not home yet) I wanted to try to do it on my own.

That's when the meltdown began. I filled the tub, no problem. I got undressed up to my bra. Please tell me why I could not get my bra off with one hand? I know guys do it all the time! Well I kept trying and couldn't. I don't know if I was just getting frustrated or what, but I lost it. I balled and balled on the bathroom floor. This whole process has been so terrifying to me and I think I just reached my breaking point.

Well of course what happens next while I'm sitting there, eyes full of tears? Yup...I start getting sick. Ugh!!! Just what I needed! I have not been able to keep anything down since Saturday morning...I mean nothing! Fluids just started staying down yesterday.

Today I get a break from the IV fluids. Dr. wants to see what I can get and keep down on my own today. I obviously don't get to take the IV lines out of me yet; they are a little bit more permanent, but at least I don't have to carry around the backpack full of fluids. Oh-well, we will see how things go today. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, October 27

I should have been a nurse....

So after yesterdays experience and training, I'm thinking I should have just became a nurse.

I had my regular monthly check-up scheduled at my obgyn yesterday morning. Nothing new, I'm now 14 weeks and 1 day pregnant. My due date is April 25th.

Well they finally call my name and do the usual prep work including the good ol' weigh in. The nurse said to me, "wow, you lost 17pnds" I said I was aware I lost some weight due to not being able to keep down food and some fluids, bt not that much. I informed her that I went through the same thing with my first pregnancy. My body just does not do pregnancy well. Anywho, so she put me in a room and told me to wait for the Dr.

My Dr. came in and said "You need to go the hospital now" I said "Um, no. I don't understand, I went through this before and never had to go to the hospital." Well come to find out, I had lost 17pnds just in the last month; a total of 26 pounds in two months. I'm losing weight much faster in this pregnancy.

So after my meltdown and clearing of all the tears, I head over to the hospital. I get admitted and sit there with an IV for about 6hours, waiting for the "Pick" Nurse to come and put in a Pickline (travel IV) in me. Yes, they put in an IV in my upper right arm, which goes up my vein to my clavicle and back down just above my heart. I am having a really hard time coping with this. Other than giving birth to Alexi, I don't think I've ever been this nervous about something.

A nurse came to my house last night to give me my IV bags and to teach me how to change my lines. I'm telling you, I really should have just gone through nursing school. I have learned how to undo the lines, flush the lines, and set up a new IV bag. I then get to program my pump accordingly; all while trying to stay as sterile as possible so that I don't get an infection in my arm.

I can't wait to get this out and start eating real food on my own. I could not sleep last night. I'm so nervous that I might accidentally pull it out of my arm if I move the wrong way. I'm also nervous that my daughter might get caught on it and pull it.

All I know is that I just want a healthy baby and I will do everything possible to ensure that. (I just hope that this doesn't last my whole pregnancy)

Sunday, October 25

Over Due Pics

Ok, so here are pictures from recent events that I have been promising to post up for quite some time....

Daddy teaching Alexi to roller skate

Alexi and her friend Lanie playing at the beach!

My parents and their mothers at the surprise 50th birthday party my siblings and I threw them!

My dad when he was in the army and my mom at her graduation.

Alexi and her cousins at the party.

Grand mom and all her grand babies
I hope you all enjoy!!

Monday, October 12

Hey there!!!

Alright...I know, I've said I was back before, but really......I am. Trust me, I now have more time on my hands(we'll save that for another blog, lets start slow) so there should be no excuse! What's going on now? Hmmm...currently we are packing for our family trip to Disney. We fly out Saturday morning so we are really excited for that.

I am currently altering Alexi's Snow White costume to fit her a little bit better. Just our luck...the 3T dress was too big and the 2t is too small. Seriously?!?!?!? So what am I doing? Altering the 3T dress to fit her better :) This is when I wished I had a sewing machine. I do know how to work my way around one. It makes it much easier than sewing by hand. Oh-well. That's the joy of being a parent :-)

Just think...I'm going to be a parent times two in 6 more months. That's right, I am now 3 months pregnant! That has been quite a challenge lately (we'll blog about that later, too).

Happy Monday All!