I'm normally someone that can come to a quick decision. The last two days, I'd say I have not been as confident in the decision making. Thank God I have a such a supportive husband who has a sound mind. I spent more than half of yesterday in the hospital. I had been throwing up from 6:30 yesterday morning to approx. 4:00. I began to experience chest pains, numbing feeling in my upper body, abdominal pain and dizziness. Keep in mind, I had not kept anything down since Monday evening.
I called Fred about 3:00 and asked him to come and get me and take me to the hospital. I was terrified of what I was feeling. (Before continuing, I should apologize to all the patrons driving on Battlefield Blvd. that saw me toss my cookies as we stopped 4 times on our journey to the hospital.) After spending most of the night there, it was determined that the cookie tossing is due to the hyperemesis, which is causing some of the abdomen pain. The rest of the abdomen pain is due to contractions that I am experiencing. The chest pains?...well all this is putting a light strain on my heart. My blood pressure is low and I have no energy. Once I got what the Dr's call stabilized, but I call function able, I was released. Why was I released??? I know that's what your asking. I was asking the same. EMMA! Through all this, she is doing fabulous!! The hospital monitored her through all this and she is under no circumstances being compromised from any of this. Surprising huh? She technically is causing all this for me, but is in no way being effected. I don't understand it. So this morning I had to have my NST testing and Dr. visit and was hit with this:
Dr: "Due to everything that you are experiencing, I think we should consider a new option."
Fred: "What kind of option? Can we just induce her now so that all this will stop? I know Emma is fine, but I'm worried about my wife."
Dr: "I am too, but I am not confident with inducing her without knowing how far along the babies lungs have developed. She will end up in the NIC Unit and most babies born early without developed lungs tend to have a lot more breathing problems in the long run."
Me: "So what alternatives do I have?" (As the tears are streaming down my face)
Dr: "I don't normally recommend this, but it is an option. We can do amniocentesis."
(My tears start flooding now)
Dr: "This will allow us to test the fluids in her lungs and see how developed they are. I'm not a fan of this procedure bc this procedure can cause your water to break earlier than expected and all though its rare this late in the pregnancy, there is a risk of terminating the pregnancy."
I could not even speak at this point. Thank God Fred started asking all the questions and expressing all the concerns that I could not get out. Up to this point in my life as a parent, this has been the hardest thing I've come across.
After composing myself and talking with Fred, we decided against it. I know that the next two weeks physically will be extremely tough on me and my body and God only knows what will happen, but I just can't justify taking that risk. (Any readers...I would love to know what you think or if you have had to have an amniocentesis. I realize I do not know all the pros and cons and would like to hear your experiences with this. If you don't have a blog, you can leave a comment anonymously using I think your email.)
Fred and I came to this decision together and we vowed we are going to get through this together. Any and all prayers are welcomed.